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Not for NaNo, but I once wrote a fic about a role-playing game character I played that included torture and dismemberment. After I finished it, I cleansed my brain with a marathon of Disney movies. This year, I haven't gotten to any squicky stuff. Yet. Who knows what the rest of the month will bring?

Not yet, but we're only on day three. Anything could happen!

That's what scares me, it could get so much worse!

My first year doing NaNo I discovered that my Horror Muse feeds off of what scares people. It's logical, but I still felt very strange saying "Tell me what frightens you so I can work it into my novel!"

You're definitely not alone in this.

On day 1, my MC's parents had their heads chopped off and their entrails hung around their home...I had to turn the light on after I'd finished writing. :)

I'm shocked at the slow speed I'm writing, but other than that no.

XD

Okay, seriously, I haven't had shocks yet but like the comment above me, it's only day three. I'm sure by day 15 I'd be like What the hell is this???? Why is my brain crazy?

I'm with you on this. Day three and how many words? D8 Need to write more!!

I have planned to write more ... disturbing stuff though. Surely that is bad that I have already planned it. D8

Heading there, but not quite yet. The story gets darker as I progress, however.

Not this year...yet. But last year there were some scenes that I wrote that had my jaw dropping in disbelief that I could write such a thing as I put them down.

I've also written short stories that have caused me to wonder about myself and my own sanity...

Hopefully this year the muses won't pull anything too strange out of my head XD

I'm writing a thinly veiled metaphor of what has happened to me over the past few years. Sometimes I go so deep that the emotional wounds start ripping open.. or I'll catch myself writing something in the story that I didn't even know I was feeling about the thinly veiled situation but I'll know that it was the only way my subconcious could get it out.

I bet this makes for pretty powerful writing.

Sometimes it feels powerful. Sometimes I just feel naked and ashamed.

It sounds hard, but maybe cathartic? It's probably the bits that make you feel naked and ashamed that will make other people feel something too, and that's the idea, after all.

Yes. Very cathartic! I do hope my writing makes people feel something.. other than disgust, I mean. heh.

... Given the fact that i chose a gritty story to write in the first place, disturbing matter in my writing is going to be fairly common place and the first set of scenes are definitely proving that this is going to be an interesting story to write in more ways than one.

Yes.

Male Pregnancy does this to me. I'm always shocked when I write it.

i've written a gritty, bloody slaughter.
i decided since i've never directly experienced one, my ability to write it was proof i was a good writer.

THANK YOU! You just gave me a much, much, needed idea =D

Yes. I am currently about to write graphic scenes of sexual abuse. It worries me that my mind is going to these places.

This for me, too. I thought I was tackling some interesting "issues" but now I just feel like it's gratuitous. What worries me is how easy it is to write, my word count's shooting up as a result.

In my case, it's necessary to include it to advance the plot...but like you I'm getting BIG word counts out of it.

I'm worried that my plot has descended into porn!

That happened to me last year. It got quite graphic xD

when in doubt, add porn! Ohh, that will be my strategy next week :D

Gets the word count up I guess!

heh, porn is good.
I managed to write 2000 words in 20 minutes earlier. I am worried that such graphic scenes flow so easily.

Torture scenes flow more easily than porn. Revenge torture scenes. I'm stopping before it gets too graphic though I think. Maybe leave something to the imagination? Or maybe I'll go all Bret Easton Ellis, who knows?

I'm going to be writing about zombies and I'm kind of worried about this happening lol. Eating meat and murdering people kinda grosses me out.
I'm pretty good at putting that sort of stuff out of my mind after, though. I'm just worried I won't want to actually write it in the first place

I just wrote something that can develop into something I really don't want to adress. Eh, so YES!

Oh yes, every day.

yes. I stopped writing for a while and am using this to kick me back into gear and the quality of my writing is atrocious.

Definitely. 7k in and I've already blown up two people, a mechanical dog, and had one of my MC's molested by a bum named Herab. Fun times. :D

You know, not yet? But given that my other novel is about a character who's uncouth enough even to gross me out/shock me with what he says? I'm sure we'll get to it eventually.

All the time. But then again, it's when my mind brings me to disturbing places I didn't realize I had in me that my writing hits home. ~~That, and writing makes me a bit sadistic~~.

I think it makes everybody sadistic, having power over your characters and being able to make them do anything you want them to!

Also, I love your username.

Why thank you!

And yes, I think that's part of why we write. ;)

Nothing horrible - yet.

Interplanetary war is a big possibility, so lots of death, probably. Oh, and a spaceship. There's always room for horrible accidents on a spaceship.

The whole thing has been a shocking process. I co-write and we had it all laid out but then something switched things up. The revelations made by the story are rather shock inducing and we're still processing the implications.

My MC just set his bed on fire because it smelled like his ex-wife. I can only feel like it's going downhill from there. . .

That sounds awesome.

I killed off a six-year-old boy in the second scene. I had him pick up some drugs my MC dropped, think they were sweets and eat them.
Worries me slightly, but it's a good scene so I will keep it.

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Yeah, it's given my MC something to angst over and during the angsting I've discovered that my MC was married, but his wife died. Recently, I think.
And he's now being pursued by the police - yay!

I wrote a rather nasty torture scene...but then mine is set in the middle of a (science fiction) war, and my character is/was a POW. But I surprised myself with what I wrote, it was quite disturbing.

I wrote a story about a family that tortures people for a month before killing them. The method of torture for my character was being forced to go through meth withdrawals.

I also wrote a story about a girl shooting her rapist from the end to the beginning (Shoots the rapist/kills herself, days after the rape, the rape itself, the hours before the rape in that order) and disturbed my creative writing class. That story took on a whole new meaning when I was actually assaulted 9 months later.

Shit, that's tough.

These sound like the kind of thing I'd really enjoy reading, but there's something very disconcerting about writing them yourself. Have you seen the film Irreversible? If you haven't already you might not want to, it's awful, but it's very similar to the second story.

Not yet, mostly because it's a fanfiction of a war movie and will only really have the horrors that can be expected. Though my MC is going to bump off his Staff Sergeant prior to the event that makes him do it in the movie and, being as he was suicidal even when his murder was more justifiable, there might be some worrying psychological disturbances as a result.

I don't really have that kind of reaction to my writing. I've written graphic violence, murder, childhood sexual abuse, torture, rape, incest, drug abuse, war, suicide, self-injury, sexual slavery, you name it, but none of that has ever upset me. It's probably because I've always used writing as a way to work through my issues to some extent, so it actually becomes therapeutic instead of upsetting, even if what I'm writing about is unpleasant.

That being said, there is one thing that gets under my skin: awkwardness. Anything where a character humiliates themself, especially if it's a romantic or sexual situation, triggers second-hand embarrassment so badly that I sometimes have to stop writing for a few minutes to get ahold of myself. It's strange, because these ideas are coming from MY head and it's not like anyone else is ever going to read it. But when it comes time to write a scene in which one of my characters makes a fool of themself, it feels almost like watching a friend do something you KNOW is a bad idea, and being unable to stop them. This year I've got a MC who's a nice guy but also incredibly naive, and he's already had a couple of moments that have been painfully embarrassing to write. I'm not looking forward to some of the awkward sex scenes that I know are coming up. :|